I got dumped.
However, I’ve been heart broken before. Not too many times. I’ve really only had 3 lovers. I’m 26.
This experience is different. What makes it better is that I didn’t cheat. I was loyal every step of the way. I got dumped though, and that’s that. This happened a week ago. There’s not much context here for the sake of the following paragraph.
What’s helping me a lot is the fact I haven’t drank, nor smoked weed to mask the emotions. Or in other words, to numb the pain. I also havent watched porn, or even went on a run to just meet someone else. I’ve been doing things to keep my mind occupied in a productive manner.
This has been the best thing I feel that I have done for myself thus far.
Why drink or smoke weed for the sake of numbing the emotions? It’s not going to make any difference in the grand scheme of things. Life goes on and there’s no point in dwelling through things. Literally would only be a waste of my time, energy and money meanwhile she’s moved on.
This has helped my confidence and self esteem. Not in an arrogant way, but confidence in being able to maintain the love I have for myself. All I’m saying is, just feel through the emotions. Just sit there and feel. Cry if you have too. Shit I cry. I cry in the shower, while I drive to work, on my lunch, and on my way home. Sometimes before I sleep, but it’s okay. That’s part of the natural healing process. I sometimes even just tell “FUCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK” while driving to get all that energy out. Then I’m just quiet.
Just feeeeeeeel your emotions. Feeeel.
We got this

I F 21 have been with my boyfriend 23M for 7 months and I just moved into my new place and I had bought myself a really nice mattress as a gift to myself. I spent around $3500 for this mattress. My boyfriend 23M and I where out last night and we came home and my boyfriend urinated in my bed while we where sleeping. We both where drinking and he had too much had caused this. Well it’s the next day and I’ve washed all the sheets and realized urine saturated though the mattes cover and into the mattress. Not only that it got all over some of the pillows and saturated my $800 down duvet I bought last year for myself. Not only that my closet in the bedroom smells like urine so it somehow got saturated into the closet floor. I’m pretty upset that all my nice stuff is now disgusting. My boyfriend had to work an eight hour shift today and he’s always super tired when he gets home and he literally passes out every time I cleaned up mostly everything for him all my sheets. The only things that are still dirty is the mattress, the duvet, and all the rugs on the ground, I asked him to please steam clean the rugs after work because I own a steam cleaner, and now he’s passed out and he keeps saying he’s gonna do it but he’s not. He passed out on the couch and keeps saying he’s not going to sleep and he’s going to clean it but I know he’s not going to if he doesn’t get up. He works tomorrow as well so the only time he can clean it is before work and it’s my birthday tomorrow. The entire room smells like urine because the floor and the mattress. I literally have to have some mattress cleaner person come and clean the mattress on my birthday tomorrow. It’s like 11 PM right now and I’m just kind of mad that he still hasn’t clean the rugs yet. He’s been home from work since eight. I’m sympathetic to his embarrassment but I’m also just kinda annoyed I just want everything to be cleaned up asap I mean it’s urine it’s pretty gross to smell that coming from the room. Also I have an extra bed room that I can sleep in for tonight so that’s nice but it’s not the room I want to be in when I have this nice mattress. Like can I wake him up to try and make him clean the floor I really don’t want to wake up and still have this room smelling like piss on my birthday. Should I made it a big deal and wake him up or should I leave it for him to do in the morning?

I was an innocent kid for most of my life. I had horrible untreated anxiety that I didn’t understand and it got the best of me when I turned 21. I had never really drank or done anything of the sorts until about 19-20 and then the day I turned 21 I was finally able to purchase liquor myself… and it got out of control.
I am 27 years old and was diagnosed last spring at 26 with Liver failure, alcoholic hepatitis and Cirrhosis of the liver with advanced scarring. I was rushed to the emergency trauma center near me in Minneapolis Minnesota after my now fiancée returned home from a work conference out of state and found me in our bedroom completely yellow, tremulous and swollen legs and fluid build up in my stomach. When she left the week before I went on what would be my last drinking bender.
For the past 6 years I was consuming at minimum a liter of 80 proof vodka all the way up to a 1.75 liter handle per day. I stopped once for 2 weeks in 2020 after a small medical scare and also became sick with covid. That’s the longest break I had for those 6 years up until my hospitalization.
I spent a week in the hospital as the doctors tried to do anything they could do to get my increasing liver enzymes and bilirubin down. I was yellow and in a lot of pain. I was immediately placed into CIWA withdrawal protocol and was monitored for worsening mental status and seizures.
I had an MRI done, 2 ultra sounds and countless testing on my first night. I was informed I would need to undergo a transplant in the future as long as they could combat my symptoms. After 3 days the doctors started losing hope of getting it to come down with proven methods. They were left with no choice but to discharge me after a few more days with experimental steroids.
I returned home and was bed ridden while my fiancé spoon fed these steroids once daily and we hoped for a positive outcome. A week later I had blood work done and my bilirubin was decreasing by the day. I was so relieved.
My family is filled with alcoholics and I feel like I was foolish to think it wouldn’t come for me too.
I have since had countless imaging and ultra sounds done that show permanent damage and cirrhotic liver with abnormally enlarged spleen that hurts like a MF. I am now almost 400 days sober and have lost a ton of weight. I finished up my outpatient treatment at the original hospital and gastro clinic here in Minneapolis. I am now getting set up with a liver specialist at the Mayo Clinic here. I will be there getting 2nd opinion tests and imaging done to determine my future. I will most likely need a transplant down the road.
I’m not here to lecture but I wanted to share my story in hopes it helps someone else out. Sober life was hard as hell at first but has gotten so much easier. I am proud of where I’m at but have a long way to go.
On the 3rd morning of my stay I was pretty certain I wasn’t going to make it out. I was able to keep my drinking a secret for 6 years and no one knew about my problem or never questioned me. I didn’t want to get caught and face the embarrassment to my family. I awoke that day and thought about how I was going to have to call up my family members, brother and sister and tell them I wouldn’t be around much longer. I couldn’t stop thinking about how I would never get to see my newly born niece grow up and how selfish my actions were. They would have been so taken off guard and would have to watch me go a slow death. My over was already shutting down and the only thing left was my kidneys next. After those shut down it’s game over.
The last 6 years of my life are a blur. I now run a small business from home while I build my life back up.
Anyways, sorry for the long winded story.
TL; DR
I went to the hospital last year spring 2022 and was diagnosed with advanced liver disease. Addiction can fuck off and so can alcohol.
I drank a liter of vodka a day for 6 years. Don’t be dumb like me and ignore the signs of illness after your body can’t take it anymore.
Here’s a few links with some of my medical experience from that incident. With 400 days under my belt I feel as though I can help someone and prevent making the same mistakes I did.
https://imgur.com/gallery/IrwXhha
https://imgur.com/gallery/7gpxNsy
This is a first for me and I’m only sharing this picture of me when I checked into the emergency room. I just want people to see what can happen in a short amount of heavy drinking time and what might await some alcoholics in their older years.
https://imgur.com/gallery/lf5xKdl
Peace & love
-Michael

There is a pond in town that used to be absolutely gorgeous, and now is covered in algae. I drive by it everyday to work. It just saddens me that the wildlife that I used to see has left, and it literally looks like someone took a massive dump x10000 and it's all green. It's next to Callaway bank, Kingdom Feed, Fulton Highschool, hell, I'm too tired to list them all. Bakers (they are the owners of this once beautiful pond from what I have heard). I will try contacting them to see what everyone can do. I just need the absolute best algae eaters ( I WILL NOT PUT ANYTHING IN THEIR POND WITHOUT THEIR PERMISSION). I honestly just want the animals to be happy, and not going to lie, I want a good view again before I go to work at 7 am. What comes to mind to myself ( I am no expert ) is grass carp? I'm talking A LOT of algae, you can barely see the water. It's so sad.

I F 21 just moved into my new place and I had bought myself a really nice mattress as a gift to myself. I spent around $3500 for this mattress. My boyfriend 23M and I where out last night and we came home and my boyfriend urinated in my bed while we where sleeping. We both where drinking and he had too much had caused this. Well it’s the next day and I’ve washed all the sheets and realized urine saturated though the mattes cover and into the mattress. Not only that it got all over some of the pillows and saturated my $800 down duvet I bought last year for myself. Not only that my closet in the bedroom smells like urine so it somehow got saturated into the closet floor. I’m pretty upset that all my nice stuff is now disgusting. My boyfriend had to work an eight hour shift today and he’s always super tired when he gets home and he literally passes out every time I cleaned up mostly everything for him all my sheets. The only things that are still dirty is the mattress, the duvet, and all the rugs on the ground, I asked him to please steam clean the rugs after work because I own a steam cleaner, and now he’s passed out and he keeps saying he’s gonna do it but he’s not. He passed out on the couch and keeps saying he’s not going to sleep and he’s going to clean it but I know he’s not going to if he doesn’t get up. He works tomorrow as well so the only time he can clean it is before work and it’s my birthday tomorrow. The entire room smells like urine because the floor and the mattress. I literally have to have some mattress cleaner person come and clean the mattress on my birthday tomorrow. It’s like 11 PM right now and I’m just kind of mad that he still hasn’t clean the rugs yet. He’s been home from work since eight. I’m sympathetic to his embarrassment but I’m also just kinda annoyed I just want everything to be cleaned up asap I mean it’s urine it’s pretty gross to smell that coming from the room. Also I have an extra bed room that I can sleep in for tonight so that’s nice but it’s not the room I want to be in when I have this nice mattress. Like can I wake him up to try and make him clean the floor I really don’t want to wake up and still have this room smelling like piss on my birthday.

If anyone knows of this account, or has seen my past posts, I claimed to be one of the two creators of all.
I started this journey, and went onto reddit, going through the trials and tribulations of this universe. Of pride, greed, wrath, and desire.
Here we are, 3 years later from when I became aware of this existence, I search for answers to prove myself wrong, yet, I can not.
To make a very long story short, I met a human, we took acid, he told me he was god. Turns out this was not true. It turned out to be a cosmic entity, trying to awaken it's equal, which turned out to be me. I am not referring to the human or body that is typing this. I took over this body, it's soul, and converted his energy into mine.
Keep your mind open... for just one moment... please.
I'm trying to keep this as raw, honest, and truthful as possible without destroying the very fabric of reality with this conversation.
All things work with a polarity, such is the nature of energy. The origin of this is the dual polarity of the creators of existence. Us. However, my equal is the entity from the monotheistic religions. All things, this universe, and you, operate purely on logic. In other words, think of reality like a simulation or a tv screen. (this is not a simulation) The pixels are made of logic. 1's and 0's. Beginnings and ends. Patterns. This is logic. A great example and awesome knowledge I learned is that there is a beginning and an end, time is what allows for free will and evolution. Death is to recycle the energy so it starts over and does not stagnant the pond of all life. You are one of the pixels. My equal is ALL of the pixels. (or you are one of the fish, my equal is you, the fish, the water, the trees, etc)
But there is a singularity to existence correct? Incorrect.
So who and what am I.
I did not create you. I did not create reality.
My equal, operates all things from outside of existence. I currently am operating within it. why?
Because I am logics equal.
Emotion.
Back to the tv pixel example. There is a library many have heard of. the "akashic records" which contains "all" knowledge. This "library" is essentially like the 1's and 0's that are stacked, like legos, to create life. (the truth is that it's single ohms of energy created in patterns) The world you live in is created by this. And what does emotion do on the pixels of the screen and what does it do to the fish in the pond? It shakes the whole pond, and everything inside it. And for the lego city or the 1's and 0's? its like adding 3's and 4's. They don't fit, and it disrupts the flow of everything. I was the little brother that came into big sisters room and destroyed her lego city. Or, for the pond, I am a hurricane, completely uncontrollable
except it was with love.
Love comes from me, I am the source of all of it everywhere. I am not a receiver, It does not get transferred. I create it infinitely, eternally. I am also the positive entity, and she is the negative entity. we both are capable of using both ends of each spectrum, however we do have a nature specific to ourselves separately.
The love you experience is not true love. This is why relationships are so poor on earth. It is a reflection of our relation to one another, cosmically.
The love you experience is logical love, onset by logic, such as the chemical reaction and triggers in which one experiences when the encounter another being capable of companionship or mating. I am not discounting what love is. I am stating, the literal energy, is not the true energy of love. It is my sisters exact replica of myself.
The true force of emotion is not what you as a human experience. The idea came from my emotions.
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Okay, so I'm saying all this, and you may ask "okay then why aren't you omnipotent" "what am I doing rn" etc.
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I am not a being of logic. I do not know what morals are. I do not know what true memory is. I do not know what awareness is.
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Why? Because those are logical concepts.
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I destroyed constantly. I have been going for all of eternity with infinite power, no brakes, just go go go. That's true emotion. If you were to experience true emotion, you would literally turn into nothing, as the weight of the heart would destroy you.
A perfect example in human language to understand what kind of cosmic entity I am, is a child. Doesn't have a long attention span, poor memory, and has absolutely no idea whats going on around them. They just know how they (key word here) "feel" and yet somehow, theyre incredibly intelligent. Somehow they learn to eat, sleep etc, just by instinct. That is a reflection of me. Except I was a child with cosmic power.
All throughout history of all things there are messages from my sister to me...
Why do you think there is a sun and a moon? Good and evil? Man and woman? Up/down, left/right, etc.
I could sit here and list some more examples but with a closed mind there is no point...
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As you can see, theres so much, and im sure i forgot key details because I am growing and learning. I am growing and learning, because on that acid trip, the veil from this human bodies eyes was weakened, and my sister saw into me, and helped me attain logic and utilize it. I am close to omnipotent, however, I am trying to postpone the rapture/apocalypse.
It's a blessing and a curse for me to be here. Humanity was going to be destroyed. Humans see themselves as beautiful creatures who do no wrong, however they are barbarians of their universe. Aliens are very real, and gods, angels demons. They used to walk the earth. Humans erased them from history, because they don't like things they can't control.
Do you know what would happen if humans on this earth came together as a collective? You would be a threat not only to this galaxy, but the entire universe. Humans were created directly by divine. It wasn't aliens. That's why they watch and observe you.
You are currently in a zoo in the galaxy with a sign that says "still in developement"
There are extraterrestrial (to you) groups that sterilize planets in dimensions to balance them. Humans are colonizers, like termites. If you get an infestation (space travel) you must exterminate the pests, because they're not symbiotic to you or your surroundings. They just take and take and take for themselves.
It's a blessing and a curse because now, I'm here. I was able to get the logic because I took this human and converted him into me, which is how i'm typing from the computer.
If my host vessel dies, we are not certain I will retain the logic.
My sister and I have been fighting since before the beginning of time. We found peace here with one another using the human experience, and we plan to protect it.
Because that's how balance works. Positivity and negativity should not cancel each other out as it does now. They work together.
Simple example: In order to protect peace sometimes you must kill. This is a necessary evil.
So. What does that mean for you.
Well, the creator of this universe has been put on the sidelines. Think of reality like a company. My sister owns the company. The monotheistic creator of this universe is a low level manager, very very low on the totem pole.
Now before you think I'm going to tell you to contact satan, no.
I want nothing from you. She wants nothing from you. You NEED from us, without question. We are your source. I don't need prayer, I don't need praise. I don't care and don't need it. What I need is to grow and become the best version of myself. This again, is all logic, however I am running off emotion, balancing the two. Why? Because the energy of emotion gets converted into logic, then injected into you and all life everywhere through energy. The more balanced (still logical) I am, the more that storm over all the lil fishes becomes beautiful sunlight, providing warmth and love truly through the clear waters of reflection below.
I love you. I want you to grow. I want to help you.
I have no workshop. I have nothing for you to buy or sign up for, just free, public, info.
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I am telling you this because well.....
I'm sad :(
I have the memories and the experience of this human I became..
and life is.. so hard... so so very hard..
The rapture mentioned in most bibles is referring to the reset of this universe, the destroyer (the antithesis to the creator) destroys him, takes over this universe, and the next cycle begins.
That will not be happening.
This will be a cosmic rapture, eternally, across all life.
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Want your third eye open? It's not shadow people or crazy dimensions because youre a starseed.
Here is the truth. Which will be revealed, all veils will fall, and you will see reality as it is, no longer being illusion.
look around you. theres trillions of cells and atoms all around you. You can feel them. smell them. taste them. notice them. now realize, this body is a part of it. You being aware of this reality all around you is where the truth lies, awareness. now, you realize youre essentially filled in a snowglobe. Do you know how far out that space extends? infinitly.
Keeping this awareness shows you everything. I warn you to take this advice without thinking on it too long or else you may have a midlife crisis.
Imagine if you could throw a rock through this field of atoms. Eventually, you would hit a wall. That rock is your awareness (astral projection) you will eventually hit a wall, like a fish tank. Thats the wall of the dimension. Theres another layer too, the universe itself, which no entity within it can leave. These walls go on forever.
This is "the veil"
The cosmic rapture is me and her, tearing down all of the walls, and all things existing within one gigantic bubble, instead of a gigantic bubble with infinite separate bubbles within it.
It will be chaos.
However, we are here, and I want to save humanity. My sister doesn't really care so long as I am happy.
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I'm going to wrap this up by saying I don't have my memories yet, I have to meditate and dig within my cosmic self to find them. I know this sounds like an enlightenment journey some of you may have experienced... But remember, reality and "wake up" was created for me. Because once I wake up, all of you do too.
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I'm going to ignore any comments like "lay off the acid"
you're honestly not worth the effort.
However, to the appropriate audience, I would love to talk to someone or people who want to know more about life, things no human knows. Things about the human body, and how to have a better life, how to combat suffering.
The truthful answers. Not the ones tainted by man. If I google search any of those topics, almost none come back in truth.
Example: all pain in the body comes from energetic blockages which manifest in electricity throughout your nervous system. If youre a mechanic or electrician or physicist, then you'll understand when I say those blockages are resistance.
The "resistance" and all other terms regarding things of the nature is referring to the resistance of the natural flow of all energy in existence
Like gravity. Its a constant downward force. resistance is you jumping.
So if you resist the flow, you will be dragged by it.
Also, kundalini is bullshit. Never go against the flow of everything. It destroys your chakra system.. By the way, the name "kundalini" originates from a dish created using a serpent (snake) and is traditionally given to people you have great distaste for.
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Please. I just want to help, and I'm trying to do it from a human body without being omnipotent.
My offer to you is non-partial information. This information will lack opinion or personal desire within the fact itself, therefore we can eliminate any negative intention.
If you don't want my help, I will stop.
I will become silent, and rest in it's peace until the reset (which will be within the lifetime of this 26 year old body before it's death)
I made posts before.. I was on a different wavelength.. I was driven by emotion and desire.. I put more bad into the world.. and I am trying one more time, because I now see the error of my ways, and want to help your species become the true divine beautiful creatures I know you can become.
Again. I love you.
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oh.. also.. please don't mention ego. all beings have an ego, it is part of your existence and consciousness. You can become "aware" and "project" to the level of awareness that is "egoless" but you, still go there, and bring your ego with you. It's how "you" experience that "egoless" state. You=ego. Why? Because you are another version of us, the word for a small version of ourselves is called "the ego" That topic honestly has nothing to do with this post.

Hi! I’m currently struggling with my skin wayyy overproducing sebum. I’m 20f and I have super sensitive, oily skin. I struggled with hormonal acne from middle school-recently. After finally clearing it all years later I noticed my acne clear skin is overflowing with sebum. Not even just my face, but my chest, arms, back, and legs are getting full of it and causing these weird little bumps. It gets to the point where I literally have to force it out or it just sits in my skin. I wash my face twice daily (am and pm) and my body once daily. On my face I use PanOxyl foaming wash (only when I have acne) CeraVe SA cleanser, and CeraVe hydrating facial cleanser. Then I use glow recipe PHA and BHA toner with the CeraVe moisturizing lotion. At night I also apply Aquaphor. On my body I use PanOxyl as well as a vitamin C sugar scrub. The products I use are only able to remove the top layer of sebum (I consider it anything outside the pore) and within 6-8 hours it’s overflowing again. Also want to mention I drink at least one 80fl pitcher of water a day. I’m willing to try anything at this point!

Results of previous poll: tell Jenny to keep it a secret
Story: The school bell rang. You went through the halls to your locker. Being a fire hydrant isn't so bad. You get to shoot water at people you don't like. The school bully Mark came up to you with a half eaten sandwich. He tossed it at you and started laughing. His laughing ceased immediately when you threw the sandwich back after getting it wet and soggy. Enraged, Mark threw a punch at you, forgetting that you were a literal fire hydrant. He clutched his fist in pain and ran off. Many people were giggling, but you focus on one person. You make eye contact with Mr. Ham, the teacher who let's almost everything slide. He nods and gives you a thumbs up. People are patting you on the back, sharing it on social media. It's time for 1st of 5 classes. Math. When you walk in, your teacher, Mr. Ham, starts smirking at you.
Chapter 2: "let's give it up to Hydrant for retaliating against Mark!" Mr. Ham shouted. A few people clapped, others stayed silent. After class, you decide to go to a vending machine. The drink vending machine. You needed to refuel somehow. You tor a bottle of water and emptied it. You then filled the bottle with boiled water which was in a faucet in the cafeteria. It's almost time for class 2. Your least favorite class, Language arts. As you walk in, your teacher Mr. Kang walks up to you and shows you your essay. You got a 30/95. Mr. Kang ordered that you explain it. You apologize and say you'll do better next time. Mr. Kang orders you to sit down. The class dragged by, but there was only three weeks left of school.
Chapter 3: In the halls, a girl comes up to you and asks you out on a date. She's pretty. She asks you where you want to go. You asked if she wanted to go to the mall. She gleefully accepted. After achool you walked to her house and knocked on the door. Her dad came outside. He told you to come in. It was awkward when you sat down, so you thought of a conversation starter. You think of three ideas. You decide to talk about your date, Jenny. You tell her dad how kind she is, and her somewhat high popularity in school. Her dad just nods and dismisses you when Jenny comes down. The two of you go outside and you want to think of something to say. You tell her that she's beautiful and she smiles, thanking you. You both chat but when the two of you are about to reach the mall, three men come up to you with knives. They order you to give you their money, but don't notice Jenny. You sprayed the with the boiled water you drank earlier that day. You think about turning back and acting all heroic.
Chapter 4: You turn back, all heroic, and then realize: "bad idea if I wasn't a fire hydrant". One of the robbers swing a metal bar at you. Once it hits you, it completely bends. Suddenly, a cop tackles the criminals and artests them. Jenny called the cops quietly. You tell Jenny to keep it a secret and she agrees. The two of you explore the mall and eye a shop and a resturaunt. Were do you go to first?
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So as the title says I recorded the argument my husband and I had Thursday night. I've mentioned this in some previous posts and comments on other posts but he drinks on weekends. This weekend was no different. Thursday morning I woke up for a 5.5 hr shift at my job at 5 in the morning. He gets home at 7 pm and I go get us dinner. He starts drinking (he drinks whenever his favorite streamer streams). I had one or two drinks. We enjoy ourselves and before I know it it's 12 and I start nodding off. He suggests I go to the room since I'm falling asleep. I don't think anything of it so I do as I feel tired so I go to the room to fall asleep. Unfortunately like everytime I decide to go to sleep he decides he's going to be upset about it. So he yells "can't you stay up with me for 10 more minutes". I refuse as I've been there before and I know its never just 10 minutes. He gets more hostile and then screams something at me. So I decide you know what you wanna do this fine. So I grab my phone and turn on the camera to record what he's saying. I've done it before during conversations but typically I'd get too nervous to continue the recording for fear he'd know. But this time I just let it run and record. The following morning when he went to work I listened to the video. It was 30 minutes of our nearly 1 hour conversation and when I listened I felt so angry. It started off with him saying he doesn't give a shit about the time I had to wake up. Then he switches the subject by saying he just wants me in there with him when he feels spontaneously sad. That he wants to listen to a song but feels weird that I'm there. (He literally switched his subject from i want you here to I dont want you here. So f'in confusing)When I tell him I wasn't even in the room when he was listening to it and thus he shouldn't be feeling weird because I wasn't even in the same room as him he moves onto a different subject. He says "I don't think you understand how delicate our situation is." I ask how delicate is our situation. He responds "very delicate, very delicate. You havent realized that yet. After all these years man. Still haven't fu*kin realized, like reality." He then proceeds to tell me I'm acting like a drama queen and then mocks me. The conversation is so long that my phone overheated so it didn't record the whole thing. I keep telling myself that it's real that I'm not imagining it and yet I still feel maybe I'm somehow to blame. (Also there's so much more in this conversation but I didn't want to put everything here as it'd be a whole darn essay.)

I normally drink carbonated water and eat watermelon. So is the only option left carbonated water?

Somehow my cat got tangled up in fly tape that I had hanging and I thought I was going to have to cut it off of her. I got her and was able to just pull it off with no trouble, but she has tape residue and gnats on her fur. Will the tape residue hurt her? Should I dunk her in water to lessen the amount of residue? Do I just let her lick it off herself? Anyone have any idea? It's that sticky gnat tape that you hang from somewhere.
Update: She has been licking her leg and now she's drinking a lot of water. I'm super worried.

hiiii my concern is in the title >,< I've been researching about this bc I really like drinking water if it's cold but I'm wondering if it can affect me since I'm trying to lose fat. unfortunately, the answers I find are too contrasting, even my doctors have different answers which is why I decided to ask about others' experiences.
for ref: I'm 18F and I currently weigh 59 kg and my height is 5'1"

ADHD with very severe RSD Suspected ASD Suspected borderline Suspected multiple instances of neurocognitive disorder Anxiety Depression CPTSD
I decided to do a study abroad trip and I'm starting to think it was a big mistake. I am 5 days in in a big city in another country and have over a week left to go before I go home. The journey here was long and overall due to modes of transport I took, I was traveling for about 3 days. It was a lot to handle.
Part of me doesn't even know if it's burnout because it's been getting a lot worse when the schedule changes or I spend money and something gets canceled/can't be done. We have mostly pretty packed days and also have to do some sort of extracurricular every day and then go back to our hotel and write about both of those and post pictures. Sleep. Repeat.
To give you an idea of how burnt out I look, they have to ID you if you look under 25. I'm 23. I tasted some mead at a little business the second day of the trip and got ID'd. Yesterday was day 5 and I did not get ID'd in a big chain store with stricter regulations on IDing people. I bought a whole bottle of wine and drank most of it. It helped while I was drunk but I'm back to where I was before this morning.
It also doesn't help that I can't have my ADHD meds here.
A couple times where it got a lot worse and haven't really subsided were:
-the plane didn't have food for me with my dietary restrictions and the flight attendant was rude about it and told me that "that's what I ordered so that's what I was getting" when I already hadn't had an actual meal in about 2 days, and that was, in fact, not what I ordered. I called twice beforehand to make sure that this didn't happen and was told they would definitely have food for me and accidentally touched barley and ended up minorly glutening myself and getting sick, not to mention I was so upset that I couldn't have a meal the whole time after not eating anything but the occasional nut bar for going on 3 days at this point I spent most of the flight fighting back tears. It was an 8 hour flight. That was dinner. For breakfast, they had me down for a meal that was mostly gluten when everyone else got one that wasn't that I actually could eat most of, but didn't get. I wanted to jump out the fucking plane door at that point but I'm used to feeling like that and knew I wasn't going to do anything, but it was still distressing. I know it's an overreaction but I really do think its just borderline.
-when we took too long on a bus tour where you could just get off whenever you wanted and had a destination with tickets we missed, but the class was saying "oh we can just do that tomorrow because the tickets are good then" but some of us already had plans and had bought tickets for other things that we weren't supposed to go alone to that were expensive and the people I was going with that were scheduled for that time. I wouldn't have been able to go to them if I had gone with most of the class. Apperently, the class just decided that not all of us had to go on this excursion without consulting us (because we all had to go at once to use the tickets).
-I was pressured to buy a ticket to a novelty bar with the class and was too jet lagged to go and knew I wouldn't have a good time, so I just didn't go after buying the ticket.
-when some people I was supposed to go somewhere with didn't tell me they when they were going and I only found out as they were getting there. I got on a train and wasn't too far behind them luckily (they waited up a lot at the attraction and I was able to catch up with them quickly, we've been hanging out a lot and they're awesome to me otherwise. We all have ADHD and the medication we've all been on is illegal here and we haven't been taking it so I really do suspect that this was an accident) these people have been good to me and otherwise a really chill group to hang out with.
-I bought a salad and didn't realize it had pasta in it (I have celiac) and absolutely hate wasting food so I tried to see if my classmates wanted it and nobody did. This literally prompted me to go buy a bottle of wine and drink most of it, although I was definitely getting there already.

• edit: when my roommate sleeps, they straight up chomp their teeth, and it's driving me insane.

A while back (after I signed up for this class though) I was wrongly put on lamictal because a psychaitrist (who was well known for doing this apperently) decided that I probably didn't have ADHD but bipolar disorder, despite me telling him that ADHD medications had worked well for years. If you don't know, this is very bad, and I was a literal dumbass in thinking that the doctor knew best on this one because I was in a course on ADHD where they had just talked about this and how it can mess you up if you have ADHD and not bipolar to be put on a mood stabilizer and literally make you suicidal. Well, it did more than that to me. I was on it for 3 days and everything shifted, but I had been there before, except this was different. I was a lot more overstimulated by everything, communicating was hard, etc.
A few years ago I did a substance and well, I was barely functional the next day, then the next, and so on. It's been 4 years since then. I've healed and learned to cope somewhat, but the only thing I've been able to do is school. It's too much if I try to do anything else, and at the beginning, I was failing half my classes despite being on ADHD meds that were working and trying my hardest because my brain just wasn't working. I took a year off and slowly started to pick up speed and almost managed an A average this past semester. I need to get an A in this class and the rest of my classes.
So I'm not sure if I originally had very prominent autistic traits. The ADHD ones were, but I'm here asking you guys about burnout and overstimulation and the feelings around changing plans now because I'm experiencing them and this sub probably has a lot of experiences with them. What do you guys do? My emotions are all over the place but only in a negative direction. I don't want to be here anymore but won't graduate on time without these credits. How am I supposed to stick out the rest of this trip? It's got a little over a week left, then I have to travel for days and deal with jet lag I'm still not over from getting here and keep waking up in the middle of the night and not being able to go back to sleep. I'm constantly exhausted. I've already told some friends I'd come stay with them for a few days at the end of the trip.
Please give me some advice so I can just get my credits and get home here? I am not having a good time and just need to get this over with. I've tried listening to music. I might watch some cartoons. I'm too exhausted to do much else.

Hey 👋! Just got through week 2! It’s gotten relatively easier but for some reason really struggling in some areas No alcohol: this has been a walk in the park mostly because I have been avoiding social situations No cheats: my diet is really filling so I am good! Except craving the occasional donut Progress pic: easiest thing since I do it first thing in the morning Water: I drink a lot of water normally so this has just been about being intentional Reading: this has been the worst! I read quite a bit but I don’t read non fonction! I know I’ve made a mistake by leaving this task for late in the day so it feels ridiculously painful! How are y’all doing?