This isn’t the first time this happened but it still hurts. I’m questioning if I’m the problem since I’ve lost so many friends during these past few years. I’ve had arguments with this specific friend before and im just so sad. Every time it happens I feel so sad and to me it feels like they don’t care.That they moved on already. We haven’t spoken properly in a while since I distanced myself because to me it felt like they don’t care aobut me. Also because I felt as if I didn’t matter to them and that they weren’t putting in effort into the friendship. They would constantly hang out with other people. I guess now that i think aobut It we have both been distancing ourselves. I wanted to talk to them about what they did but they mentioned it in a place with other people and obviously i don’t want to to talk about that when other people are there since this is personal. I’m sorry this is so unorganized but it’s late I’m tired and crying. So this post may come off as childish but oh well. Maybe I reserve this for being a horrible person. I wasn’t the nicest friend either. Beofre we nearly completely stopped talking they made passive aggressive remarks such as me being immature and other ones that have affected my self esteem. I just wish they would talk to me. But at the same time do I really want to be friends with a person who isn’t gonna change. I feel that maybe they just affect me negatively. And the thing is I don’t have anyone to talk about this to. What do you even do in this situation? Nothing ?
I also feel like my problem is so stupid compared to other people on this subreddit. I feel so so stupid.

Waving away the smoke from the poof. I did it. I made you stop scrolling. Takes a bow. I'll share a secret with you. Lean over to me please. I'm not really a magician. That said, I do have super powers. I'd like your undivided attention. You should pause your show, take a quick sip of your coffee, tea, and turn down your song. I hope your not baking, or driving while reading this. I'll wait thirty seconds and let you get comfortable. Cue Jeopardy music.
Ready now? Assuming you said yes. Here we go! I got you to stop scrolling, and I asked for your undivided attention. Now, I have to deliver an amazing post. Rolling around my neck. Clockwise and then counterclockwise. Doing one round of head, shoulders, knees, and toes. All warmed up. Look at you. See, you're already laughing, smiling, or at least smirking. Damn, I'm good. I'm modest too. wink-wink
Fiddle sticks, where was I. Oh I know, my super powers. For starters, I can pick perfect avocados every time. I'll wait while you re-read the previous sentence. Every single time, perfect avocados. Here's a tip. Go for the one that are less round and more oval shaped. I may share more later down the line...maybe. Sit down please, before I share my second super power. Cue Jeopardy music, again. Now that you're seated. I haven't lost a single sock to the dryer in over a decade. Yes, all my socks have a matching partner. Dont be jealous. I'm more than willing to share with you ONLY if you promise to use the information for good. I'll stop "bragging" for now. I'm modest, remember.
I share some of what I use as my regular life aka super hero cover up. Nature is my happy place, especially the water. I find it therapeutic. Nothing, like the smell of rain before it actually rains. I'm a PPD (Proud Plant Dad). Plants teach me so much about me and life. I mentioned my super powers, so it's only right I mention my kryptonite. You wouldn't hold it against me right. Sushi...it's Sushi. That's my kryptonite. I've embrace self-love/car and I understand that when im my best, all those connected to me all benefit. You should probably buy a portable charger. You'll need it with all the memes, gifs, music, and dad jokes we'll be sending each other. I love to hold kitchen concerts while we cook together. I have lots of hobbies and other interest. I play a mean air guitar. I've held you long enough. You should probably get back to your movie, baking/cooking, prep for the work week etc. I've been a Dom for nearly a decade. I've also had the pleasure of mentoring two other doms. It's something I'm passionate about. I understand and appreciate how beautiful a healthy D/s dynamic can be when built on trust, open/honest communication and chemistry. No rush, no pressure just a conversation for now. Talk to you soon. Abracadabra, poof I disappear

I’ve been working at the same office for 4 years now and I’m kinda over it. There are some pros that are hard to find which kinda sucks. I live in a smaller town not near any major cities. LA is an hour or more from me so finding a job that pays well is kinda hard.
My current job is only a 20 minute drive with benefits and I get paid a decent amount. I’m not rich by any means and probably would struggle if I was living on my own but it’s enough for me now.
But I’ve become increasingly bored af burnt out. I don’t like what I do anymore and I’m over being the only girl. It seems I get a lot of wandering eyes. I can’t make friends because most of the men who do talk to me have ulterior motives. Most of our employees are in a warehouse and you know how inappropriate warehouse talk can get with men.
Anyways, I want to change jobs but I feel stuck. I’m not sure what steps to take. I look at other jobs and I feel like it’s not something I would like either or I wouldn’t be good at it. Looking to get some ideas.

I love this game. It took me a long time to beat it though. The first time I did beat it though I was playing on Hardcore mode because I was feeling frisky when I started the save. I was delighted when I pulled it off. I thought I would be done with the game at that point. I was wrong, because I started a new hardcore run that very night.
I ended up getting even more into that save than the last successful run. My bases were sleeker, more efficient, yet also homier, more lived-in. I finally realized you can build a base in the Bulb Zone if you just go there with the Prawn suit even if you haven't got any of the fancy arms because once again it's taking you fucking forever to find the vehicle upgrade console but I'm not mad really because I am discovering gameplay like whoa as a result. The ability to tank some scary bites while also punching off your attackers is great, and when I learned how to properly jump, like really jump in this bad boy I was discovering amazing new modes of traversal that I barely touched on my last run. I used the prawn suit a lot in my successful run and I was still sleeping on it for the most part.
I built my first alien containment in the Bulb Zone. I was going to surround it in glass to remind the creatures around me that I can put them in a cage if I will it. I got stuck in a tree and rescued by a reaper. I even set up a Reginald farm at my home base so I'd never want for food or fuel again (though between the solar panels and the marble melons I rarely had to resort to that even with my fancy ass water filter). I was on top of this world. I was making Planet 43216-whatever my bitch!
I got cocky.
It was when I was stubbornly trying to get a hatch on my new heat-powered outpost near the big floaty blue balls zone and underestimating just how much damage a warper could do if it got in a particularly good slice. So when very suddenly my health was in the flashing red zone I remembered the cat poster and did not panic. I switched over to my seaglide, made a beeline for the prawn suit, where in a matter of seconds I would be popping my first aid kit and ready to punch that fucker.
He immediately warped me out of the suit and the damage from that killed me.
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Sense of limitless power indeed.

Waving away the smoke from the poof. I did it. I made you stop scrolling. Takes a bow. I'll share a secret with you. Lean over to me please. I'm not really a magician. That said, I do have super powers. I'd like your undivided attention. You should pause your show, take a quick sip of your coffee, tea, and turn down your song. I hope your not baking, or driving while reading this. I'll wait thirty seconds and let you get comfortable. Cue Jeopardy music.
Ready now? Assuming you said yes. Here we go! I got you to stop scrolling, and I asked for your undivided attention. Now, I have to deliver an amazing post. Rolling around my neck. Clockwise and then counterclockwise. Doing one round of head, shoulders, knees, and toes. All warmed up. Look at you. See, you're already laughing, smiling, or at least smirking. Damn, I'm good. I'm modest too. wink-wink
Fiddle sticks, where was I. Oh I know, my super powers. For starters, I can pick perfect avocados every time. I'll wait while you re-read the previous sentence. Every single time, perfect avocados. Here's a tip. Go for the one that are less round and more oval shaped. I may share more later down the line...maybe. Sit down please, before I share my second super power. Cue Jeopardy music, again. Now that you're seated. I haven't lost a single sock to the dryer in over a decade. Yes, all my socks have a matching partner. Dont be jealous. I'm more than willing to share with you ONLY if you promise to use the information for good. I'll stop "bragging" for now. I'm modest, remember.
I share some of what I use as my regular life aka super hero cover up. Nature is my happy place, especially the water. I find it therapeutic. Nothing, like the smell of rain before it actually rains. I'm a PPD (Proud Plant Dad). Plants teach me so much about me and life. I mentioned my super powers, so it's only right I mention my kryptonite. You wouldn't hold it against me right. Sushi...it's Sushi. That's my kryptonite. I've embrace self-love/car and I understand that when im my best, all those connected to me all benefit. You should probably buy a portable charger. You'll need it with all the memes, gifs, music, and dad jokes we'll be sending each other. I love to hold kitchen concerts while we cook together. I have lots of hobbies and other interest. I play a mean air guitar. I've held you long enough. You should probably get back to your movie, baking/cooking, prep for the work week etc. I've been a Dom for nearly a decade. I've also had the pleasure of mentoring two other doms. It's something I'm passionate about. I understand and appreciate how beautiful a healthy D/s dynamic can be when built on trust, open/honest communication and chemistry. No rush, no pressure just a conversation for now. Talk to you soon. Abracadabra, poof I disappear

Has anyone had any success with Damiana leaf / extract for mood and/or testosterone? About to try it out, but trying to get a heads up. I have horrible anxiety attacks at work and in general. I’ve tried nearly everything and nothing works or gives me horrible side effects (lorazepam etc etc etc). Looking for a more natural route.
If you tried it, how did you feel and do you take it long term?

I'm (20s, f) very close with my mom (50s, f), we speak nearly every day, but I am worried that she has some sort of mental health issue though I'm not sure what.
When I was growing up, she would sometimes tell me about seeing angels and ghosts, but she is a deeply spiritual person so I always assumed it was part of that. She would get very hurt if I told her I didn't believe her, so I learned to sort of nod and just accept the experience is real enough to her. She also believes she has seen ufos in the past, which again isn't that out there compared to what a lot of people generally believe.
However, since I've moved out 8 years ago, she began telling me she sees more strange things. Like alien machines in the backyard, time travelers, and strange looking people disappearing into thing air. She is always alone when these things occur, but it seems to be super infrequent that they happen (like once every few months), but I do think she might be reluctant to share if it happens more because she is aware that it sounds crazy and she tells me I'm the only one she shares this stuff with.
I'm becoming worried about her, that maybe something isn't right and she should get checked out, just in case, but I also don't know how to encourage her to go without her feeling like I don't believe her. I'm worried that since I'm the only one she seems to tell these things to, if she no longer trusts me then she'll stop telling anyone about these experiences. She also seems to be perfectly normal besides this. She's a little paranoid about nosy neighbors, but that's about it. She is normally a very kind and smart person, but very defensive over these beliefs. Does anyone have a similar experience?

My friends don't play ranked so I'm looking for a few ranked buddies because I'm tired of randoms that wanna rat or rush to 1v3 a team without even letting the team know. Ngl I'm kinda trash but I make up for it by being a decent support. A few things about me and my play style: • I'm Plat 4 • I'm 26 so I prefer 21+ (No one under 18 sorry) • I'm chill and I'm a very open minded person, I am a shit talker tho. • I main loba, I ping/pickup the good loot for my friends (open to playing other people tho) • I will get banner no matter what • When respawing I'll grab anything for you that you need in the shop and give you half my healing items (I usually hoard a lot) • I usually like to land with/near 1 team to fight then play a little passive until we're positive then go aggressive and just push any fight but I'm also down to just follow what my teammates wanna do so if you wanna hot drop I'm down idc as long as there is communication.....no ratting tho. • although I do try my best I don't take games seriously so I'll never rage If anyone wants to play just dm me your gamertag :)

while everyone is playing aether gazer i finally started to actually get into PGR. i had the game since it launched globally but never really "played" it outside of doing summons and a few missions every other day. but after seeing the famous alpha bury the light video and with the announcement of the pc client i finally decided to jump in
Im enjoying the game alot so far. it almost feels like a normal action game sometimes. PGR is a rare gacha in which i actually have to really focus on average combat. in most other gachas you just put on auto and you win for most of the content but with pgr im damn near fighting for me life with some of the bosses, modes, and some story stages.
all the characters ive used so far are genuinely enjoyable. my main gripe with honkai impact was how alot of the older characters where not fun to play to me at all. and the game would usually force me to use those characters in story. in PGR i find that even A rank constructs are a blast to play and almost feel like s rank ones lol.
PGR also makes me want to get better at the game in a way no other gacha has. like i genuinely want to master the combat and style on bosses and what not. it reminds me on how i feel about devil may cry and bayonetta. i actually want to increase my skilll level in the game.
i also adore the character designs. one that i have to give a shoutout to is Qu. she looks so badass
one gripe i have so far though is that the stamina system is kinda beating my ass. i have no problem grinding for hours but i really cant when i gotta be stingy with my serum usage. im sure that would probably go away later down the line.
im on chapter 8 and the story is meh so far but i heard it gets better at around this point.
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So ya this may be a honeymoon phase but if i get tired after putting alot of hours in it having fun then i think it would be worth it in the end. also REALLY looking forward to some of the new characters because from looking at gameplay videos, they all seem cracked.

I'm sorry about that. He is the best thing to ever have happened to me. But my emotions have always been gently fucked. I don't think I'm capable of loving anyone in a healthy way.
I've never loved anyone more. But it's no where near the deep sort of romantic love you see in movies or in real life.
It's a little bit dark and obsessive and I don't have better words to put my feelings into. All I know is, I do not like people and I do not care about most of them beyond a certain point. I am apathetic when it comes to human relationships and most of my friendships exist to make life easier for me.
When it comes to human relationships, I do what I have to to live a little better. As long as I'm not hurting anyone, it should okay, right?
I love him because he understands all of this. Because he sees me when I'm incapable of finding myself in all of this noise. I would kill for him and I would live for him. In a twisted way, I know he is my other half and I would not be me without him.
I am selfish and I love selfishly. I do not feel anything most days but I know I feel a deep fixation when it comes to him. I love him because he sees through my human suit of faked emotions to the emptiness inside.
I love him because he understands my brain and I understand his.
I don't think I feel "love" the way most people mean it, with the big feelings and the butterflies in your stomach. I think I feel it in a he-is-part-of-me-so-I-must-keep-him-close way.

Hey! So Im a 20 year old college student have a 04 Camry, 126k miles, $10k in cc debt. I have adequate public transport near me. I want to pay off the debt asap and which is why I’m inclined to sell the car for $3.3k but in order to get that money I have to put in $1500 in repairs. If I put in that much money why not just keep it which is conflicting me. Any help?

Hello, I have a 2013 f150 platinum, this vehicle is a salvage title but for the past 30,000 miles since the work has been done it has run flawlessly. I mention this because considering it is an electrical issue, maybe it could be a loose connection.
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I have the original key that I received from Copart, the truck registers one admin key in the menu (not sure what that means?)
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I attempted to start it and I got nothing. The lights came on, the dash came on just like it always does, but no start. I had a reading of 9 volts on my battery, after changing the battery it still did the exact same thing. Weirdly enough, my key fob would only unlock and lock the doors if I took the back cover off and pushed the battery down with my thumb, it actually stopped doing that since this began even after replacing the fob battery. Before the key did stop working I could actually start my truck with the remote start function, however, once putting the key in and turning it over it would shut off and set the car alarm off. This makes me think its something to do with PATS but I would love some input before spending nearly $300 on a new key/programming.
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Heres what ive tried so far:
New OEM motorcraft battery
New keyfob battery
Checking all the small fuses under the hood with a multimeter
Visibly checking all the larger square fuses
Noticed the previous owner did replace the fuel pump fuse, but it was fine and getting a good connection
Disconnected and reconnected the PCM connection on the passenger kick panel (seemed to be a common issue on the ford forum)
Tried a million times to start the car
I ordered a "refurbished" oem key through ebay, figured if it worked for $75 instead of $250 it'd be worth it, if I need to pay the $250 ill just buy it direct from the locksmith
Disconnected and reconnected the negative terminal a few times
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One thing that's interesting is the car working with remote start, it makes me almost think the PATS sensor near the key is what's bad, I'm planning to pull and check that connection soon but I wanted to post this in hopes of getting some responses before the sun sets.

first / previous
Terran year 5201 - 18th of August.
Species: Grogs - Emperor Reith the Third - Galactic Federation Center
I requested a meeting with the Galactic Federation ambassadors, after Commander Harry requested commander Reith to introduce humanity to the Galactic Federation and help with the diplomacy negotiations with the Cleyk Federation.
Commander Harry sent their ambassador, Marcello, we brought him to the Galactic Federation Center under escort by one of our destroyers, I am currently walking besides him, humans are a bit smaller than us, but I can feel that they are much stronger, given that their gravity is 2 times stronger than that of our planet, they breath oxygen instead of nitrogen like us do...
When I opened the door, everyone glared at us again, mainly at Marcello, but he didn't care, he was calm like nothing was happening, then we went to my position, I introduced him to the other ambassadors, the Cleyk ambassador was giving him a death glare, he didn't bother to care about that either.
Then it was time for him to start speaking with the Cleyk ambassador...
"Good morning everyone, it's a pleasure to be here, I am here to discuss about the conflict between the Cleyk Federation and the Grog Empire regarding my species, Humanity, I'm sure that Reith already explained to all of you about our history and how our last ship was found, well then, Cleyk Ambassador, what's exactly the issue with us? Shouldn't it be fine since the Grog empire is the new owner of the star system?" - He asked with a smile.
"You are surprisingly brave for speaking with us like that, well then, your species has broken the most important law of the Galactic Federation, that is, that all AIs should be destroyed the moment they were found, yet, your species uses them without any kind of fear, I should also warn that species that do that must be exterminated in order to avoid another event like the Rogue AI war. I've already given the ultimatum to the Grog Empire, they can give us the system back for half of the price back, and we will exterminate your kind, or we would do it by force, likely exterminating the Grog Empire in the process."
" Your issue is with humanity, leave the Grog Empire out of this, the reason I'm here is to discuss a possible solution that avoids an armed conflict between us, but if you attack the Grog Empire, humanity will be forced to intervene."
" You think your species can intervene with only 200 thousand individuals left? Don't make me laugh!" - the Cleyk ambassador said while laughing.
Marcello didn't flinch, he was serious, humans don't like to show emotions I guess...
"Let me make it straight for you, the Galactic Federation is not going to make an exception for your species, and as one of the creators of the Galactic Federation, the Cleyk Federation has the Authority and the military power to take you out alone." - the Cleyk ambassador said with an angry expression.
"Alright then, you refused to solve the issue peacefully, therefore, humanity declares that it will protect itself and their ally, the Grog Empire, of an armed attack and invasion, if you invade our system or the territory of the Grog Empire, we will fight back, we will not retreat, neither are we going down without drawing blood from your fleets." - Marcello declared with a serene expression.
I noticed that the Cleyk ambassador seemed to be a bit afraid, since he recoiled his tail, I don't blame him, how could a species say something like that without expressing anger? And Marcello did it without any difficulty.
"Humanity is currently reactivating its military industry, if its still not clear to you, if you attack us, we are ready to defend ourselves." - Marcello said with a smile.
That was unnerving, Marcello acted like a psycho, he smiled while threatening to declare war upon the Cleyk Federation, a single, weakened species, challenging the Cleyk Federation to a fight, I was sure that humanity would not allow us to help...
"Consider that before sending a fleet to attack us. Humanity is ready to fight to protect itself and its ally, should it be needed." - Marcello finished, leaving the discussion table and then seating besides me.
"Lets leave Reith, shall we?" - Marcello asked me with a smile.
He then left, probably to wait me near our shuttle...
Before I left, I noticed something with the other Ambassadors, they were afraid, the Cleyk ambassador was now truly showing that he was also afraid, he knew he had probably screwed up...
UNCS Brazil construction started.
UNCS United States construction started.
UNCS India construction started.
UNCS Russia construction started.
UNCS China construction started.
UNCS Argentina construction started.
UNB São Paulo construction started.
UNB New York construction started.
UNB Mumbai construction started.
UNB Tokyo construction started.
UNB Beijing construction started.
UNB Paris construction started.
UNB Mexico City construction started.
UNB Rio de Janeiro construction started.
UNB Cairo construction started.
UNB Shanghai construction started.
UNB Dhaka construction started.
UNB Osaka construction started.
Ps: UNCS stands for United Nations Carrier Ship, and UNB stands for United Nations Battleship.

For some reason, my bank is listing my loan payment as double what it should be ($420, should be 210) for this month. There’s no way I can afford this and will go hundreds of dollars in the red. Why has this happened and what can I do? I wondered if maybe they combined last month and this month for some reason, but last month is listed as paid and I know it’s paid because it nearly wiped me out last month. I’m running out of time for this month and don’t know what to do. I’m a contractor right now, working DoorDash. Just came off a retail merchandiser position that wasn’t paying, looking for an actual job, but struggling to make ends meet right now. Last thing I need is to be charged double on my loan payment right now. I’ve reached out to the bank through email but they’re closed for the holiday and I fear they’ll get back to me when it’s too late and I’ll already be screwed. I’ll take any help I can get. Has this happened to anyone else and what’s my best course of action?

Hi! I'm looking for someone interested in strictly platonic cuddling near or in Orlando! It can be a one time thing or maybe more if we hit it off and have a good time.
What I love about cuddling is that it's simply pure and unfiltered love between people. One of the best feelings in the world to me is holding someone in my arms and to have them feel loved and cared for. 🥰
I'm a very affectionate and giving person and I hope I can help someone out there who wants to experience touch without the stress or responsibilities of a relationship. Being kind, honest and respectful of boundaries are all things that I value and are important to me.
As far as looks go, well I'm mixed ethnicity, about average height/weight and I do exercise regularly so I like to think I'm in good shape!
Personally, a person's looks or race aren't important to me for cuddling but I definitely expect effort in cleanliness if we meet!
Just send me a chat message if you're interested and we'll see where it goes from there. It would also be nice to talk over voice at some point too just so we get a better feel for each other. Thank you if you made it this far and I hope you have a wonderful day!

Any ideas on somewhere for me to store my luggage near Malahide castle? I know they don't have any storage at the castle and I am trying to check out of my place in Dublin then visit the castle on my way to the airport. I do not have my own car, therefore I would prefer to only have to take an uber to the castle (or nearby walkable or public transit area for luggage storage) and then to the airport. Thank you!

Before I start, TW: eating struggles & weight stuff mentioned
Ever since I was 6 years old I have struggled with eating as my anxiety likes to manifest itself into not eating anything. For years I have struggled with being underweight and not eating enough and it has been incredibly hard. There was a time a couple years ago where I was doing super well with my mental health, and for the first time in several years I was super close to a healthy weight! But then I faced a relapse in my anxiety last year and that’s when it got to the worst it’s ever been. There were days where I barely ate anything at all. I lost around 12 pounds in that time period and everything was horrible. I felt weak, had panic attacks daily, I thought it would never end. It was extremely hard for me to eat even one full meal because I was petrified of getting sick. Flash forward to now, nearly a year later, and I have been making so many strides with my eating! I’ve put on a few pounds back (still about 10 pounds lower than what my weight was at prior to all of this but I’m getting there) and I’ve started to eat a bit more normally. I still struggle a lot with avoiding many foods, but I’m at a point now where I’m eating 2.5/3 meals a day most of the week! I never thought I could get back to this point! I still have a lot of work ahead of me, with re-introducing foods that I stopped eating last year, but I’m still so proud of myself and how far I’ve come! I know that little-by-little, I will one day be able to eat everything without fear! We are stronger than we know, and we can ALL recover if we put our minds to it! Don’t let this fear overcome you!

^{11th Moon Raventree Hall}
Was it luck?
Fortune, perhaps, Joffrey decided. Or... well, he couldn't quite decide. He was a godly man, but one with much and more blood on his hands. Not literal blood. That would've been better; it would have pleased those whispers he yearned to hear if the unfaithful had been slain.
But no. It was his own kin that he shoved over to the fires, and though he longed for the pangs of regret and the wages of sin, he was granted only blessings.
He giggled when he saw the rider arriving through the gates. Down the dirt path and into the courtyard, undisturbed by the guards who knew him, the horseman only dismounted before the timber keep.
"Lucifer!" yelled Joff from his room, quickly going to open the door and descend down the steps. The keep was his, for now.
"Tell Lucifer to meet me in the godswood," he told a servant, barely able to contain his joy. Down the steps and into the great hall and out again into the courtyard, Joff received the rider with a quick few beckons. "Well? What happened? Did you succeed? Was—"
It was then that he saw it.
The cloaked rider produced a rolled-up carpet from his horse's saddle. "Aye, milord. Me, eh... trading mission was a success. Secured ye' some rare goods." Cradling the rug, he took some steps forward and offered it to the Blackwood.
Joff grinned. He took possession of the rug. Myrish in origin, and... surprisingly weighty. Perhaps it was the implication that rested therein. Of power. Of the many, many, many hours and hands that it took to craft such a magnificent thing. Or even the lives lost, the souls imbued in its... stitches.
And yet, the threat still loomed as if it were a blade brushing against the nape of his neck. His hair stood in place, gooseflesh marking his arms. His heart beat harder—not from a surfeit of exertion—as he went to the great tree that gave the castle its name. Quick steps. Slower, when he heard the cawing of ravens, gathered round and peering on with queer black eyes that mirrored his own.
It was not long before Lucifer showed. "Cousin?" said the bastard, rather puzzled.
"Do you hear them?" Joff stared up at the tree, mouth agape in awe. "The gods. Do you hear them?"
A grunt came from Lucifer. "Not really."
"Well—me neither." The tree was dead anyways, and Joff never had a knack for communing with the gods. "But that's not the point. They would be pleased, Lucifer. Very, very pleased." Joff turned then, revealing the rug to his cousin with a wide grin. "You'll wield this. For them."
"Is this some kind of joke?" Lucifer chuckled. "A carpet? Really?"
He didn't realize it, did he? All that he'd drilled into his head of avenging their faith, of keeping it in place, of defending against all manner of foemen—the Faith Militant, the turncloak converts, even Lady Tully. They would all see their tree burned or cut down by their vile axes.
Joff took the initiative. He placed the carpet on the ground and slowly unfurled it. Inch by inch, smoky grey steel, six feet in length and as wide as a man's hand, unveiled itself before the eyes of gods and men and roosting ravens.
Ice.
"What—" Lucifer stared down at the ripples that ran through the great sword, a sword of kings, a sword of winter, a sword of fate that was now to be kept theirs.
"Stark. He thinks himself better than us." Joff found some confidence in himself. The gods spoke for him. "Better than his faith. Better than his blood! No, no, no, it can't stand. This," he knelt, running a hand near the blade's wintry edge, "will stir him out of his folly."

SORRY FOR THE LONG POST!!
I’ve (25f) been with my SO (27m) for almost two years and I’ve been here before wanting to leave. Every time he talks me out of it before I go. Promises change. And the same stuff happens.
I feel like I’m his mom. I do all the house care, errands and cooking. If I don’t cook he doordashes or doesn’t eat. He doesn’t look after himself, I have to remind him to brush his teeth and to take any medicine he might need.
On his days off he plays video games all day, on my days off I run errands and tidy house. When I ask him to do chores he harrumphs about it and says I should be asking him nicer to help and that I’m too rude.
He has very little interest in being intimate with me and rejects me almost every time. When he doesn’t reject me the sex is very one-sided and I feel like we only fulfill his fantasies and stop. I’ve communicated the thinks I would like (making out, foreplay, etc) but he says those things are too awkward and he doesn’t like doing them.
In the beginning of our relationship I communicated that porn was a hard boundary for me and I was uncomfortable with my partner consuming it, and he agreed that it wasn’t for a relationship. On three separate occasions between February and now I’ve seen him on his phone either on porn subreddits or it’s been saved to his gallery. All of these I’ve seen without snooping through his phone, he just doesn’t know how to hide things I guess.
Every time he starts by lying to me and then gaslighting me by saying I need to be more supportive of him because he’s struggling with an addiction (that I didn’t know exhausted) or telling mw I shouldn’t be taking it so personal because it has nothing to do with me or how attractive I am to him even though we are only intimate once every three months if that.
Anyways to make a long story long, I want out. It will take me a couple of months to get my affairs in order and to be able to move myself and my cat, but I feel like I shouldn’t tell him until it’s about to happen. Is that wrong?
I feel like I’m being mean playing at dating while I’m planning to leave him. If I tell him I’m nearly positive I’ll be stuck in a manipulative hell for the next couple months while I sort myself out, but I feel guilty lying like this.
I don’t have family to stay with or I would and I don’t really have any friends so I’m veritably alone in this. So what do you all think is wise? Do I tell him and risk whatever happens, or do I stay steady on and continue with the charade?

To see my post from two days after gallbladder removal, see my previous post, Two days post-op.
Overall, recovery has been really positive! Please feel free to ask me anything about it.

The important good stuff

• I can eat pretty much anything now, and my stomach is fine with it. I've eaten cheese toasties, Lebanese mezze, big sandwiches, Thai curries, chocolate cake. All fine.
• All my bowel movements went straight back to normal. I read a lot of reports of diarrhea post-surgery and fully prepared myself for it, but it's been smooth sailing all the way.
• The keyhole incisions have almost disappeared. I'm putting vaseline on them once or twice a day to help them heal.

Recovery symptoms

• I was on codeine for two days, paracetamol for a week, now nothing.
• For the first few days after surgery, I had nightmares and woke up a lot in my sleep. I still have some insomnia and intense fatigue, but the nightmares have stopped with the medication.
• For the first couple of weeks I felt like I had a little nerve damage. I kept getting chills whenever I touched near the incision sites on my waist. It's gradually easing off now.
• In the past couple of days, I have noticed a new type of pain. I suspect it's just some nerves healing. It's nothing serious, and it will pass, but when I bend or twist, it feels like a scary tearing sensation where my GB used to be!

Digestive symptoms

• Every so often I get a feeling in my stomach like I urgently need to poop. But then it passes, and nothing happens.
• Less often, after a very fatty meal, I *do* very quickly need to poop, but it's just a regular bowel movement.
• I occasionally get a tiny amount of pain after I eat, but it seems likely to be the healing rather than any long-term digestive issue.
• Surprisingly, I haven't been craving the high-fat foods that I yearned for pre-surgery. I'm mostly craving a rich variety of vegetables cooked in a healthy amount of oil and seasoning. I'm eating a lot of salads and stir-fried veggie rice bowls, just because it's what my body seems to be asking for.

Tips

• Get way more rest than you think you need. I thought I was pretty much recovered, until this new internal pain spun up. Your body will reveal different layers of pain and healing at a time.
• Relatedly, get way more sleep than you think you need. I stayed up until 4am one night playing Zelda, and I was was in way more pain the next day.
• Be kind to your body, it's been through a bad time. Do things that relax the nervous system. Drink chamomile tea, get a massage, meditate, whatever calms you down.

I'll probably do another update at the two-month mark. Ask me anything!